At the end of December I became an animal rights activist.
I attended a slaughterhouse vigil to bear witness to the animals’ last painful minutes alive.
I didn’t understand how bearing witness would matter to animal welfare. Having seen photos of activist holding up signs protesting the slaughter of farmed animals, I thought the point was to help change the minds and hearts of people who were still eating and using animal products.
Bearing witness is more subtle but no less profound. After my vigil I cannot be silent about what happens to farmed animals. I will not stop trying to help them.
A group of about 25 of us met on a cold, wet afternoon outside Conestoga Meat Packers in Breslau, Ontario.
As I reached the gate to the slaughter yard, I heard a pig squeal. The sound was keening, piercing. I moved straight to the transport truck to see the pigs inside. They fell silent as I approached and stuck their noses out the air vents sniffing me. Through my tears I told them that “the world is beautiful and that what is happening is not fair or kind.” I stroked their faces and promised that we couldn’t help them but we would never stop working to make this horror end for other pigs. Those gentle, intelligent animals just minutes from their own death were quiet, but never stopped moving, never stopped shuffling and shifting in their agitation.
We were asked to leave the property and stay behind the marked line on the driveway “so that no one would get hurt.”
A truck loaded with pigs rolled up to the receiving dock to be unloaded.
The endless squeals of the pigs filled the air. They screamed and screamed and screamed in terror and pain as the men unloading them goaded them with electric prods.
The entire truck – an 18 wheeler weighing 80,000 pounds when it’s empty- was rocking back and forth from the violence taking place inside. Hellish, flickering light streamed from the air vents as the men inside the trucks chased and prodded the pigs.
Enraged, I watched and listened and could do nothing, helpless to make the nightmare stop. As soon as one truck was unloaded, another rolled up and the gruesome process started again.
One of the truck drivers casually leaned against a car smoking and watched another worker, prod held high, climb into the truck to move a stubborn or possibly injured pig off the truck. Something was going very wrong because a forklift driver came out and strategically kept moving his vehicle so we couldn’t see what was happening. What did they have to hide? What did they do when there was no one there to see their brutality?
None of the men in the slaughter yard made eye contact with us. I thought, I hoped, it was because somewhere inside themselves they felt shame or grief for what they were doing.
No. This was just a day’s work for them. We were simply annoying.
As the sun set on that cold, muddy slaughter yard where pigs screamed endlessly in trucks that were rocking from the violence inside, a worker strolled up holding the hand of a young child. The man stood talking and smoking with the drivers and handlers and the little boy simply stood and stared at us, then looked at the men, but never once at the trucks. The group in the slaughter yard seemed oblivious to the death and violence all around them.
How will that child escape this numbing, joyless bondage? How can we move to a better future when future generations are being indoctrinated into a lifestyle where pain and violence are considered normal and necessary?
I don’t know. But I won’t stop trying to help the animals… and the little, lost children.
As our cold, sorrowing group disbanded, another truck loaded with frightened pigs for slaughter came rolling out of the gloaming and into the slaughter yard.
NOTE: Every week 24,000 pigs are slaughtered at Conestoga Meat Packers; that’s 1.2 million animals each year in just one slaughterhouse.
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Thank you for your compassion and for sharing to help raise awareness. We are working to get an initiative established in Baltimore, MD based on The Animal Save movement.
Hi, Stacey Ann … thank you for sharing my story here. I wish you all the best with your initiative. The vigil I attended was hosted by Waterloo-Wellington Animal Save and Toronto Pig Save. They might be able to give you advice too on how to get started and proceed. Thank you for doing this for the animals, the planets and all the earth’s lost children.
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Beautifully written, especially considering how painful it was to write. The finest compliment I can bestow is to say you captured the horror. Thanks for sharing, Audrey.
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Thank you for that wonderful compliment, which means so much to me. I think reliving the day was almost harder than the day itself, but it was for nothing if people don’t hear what happened.
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